Job 9:35

Then would I speak, and not fear him -I should then be able to maintain my cause on equal terms, and with equal advantages. But it is not so with me -Margin, I am not so with myself. Noyes, “I am not so at heart.” Good, “but not thus could I in my present state.” Literally, “for not thus I with myself.” The Syriac renders it, “for neither am I his adversary.” Very various interpretations have been given of this phrase. The Jews, with Aben Ezra, suppose it means, “for I am not such as you suppose me to be.